He did it.
Half way through his MAP treatment plan.
He’s had 2 operations, 1 biopsy, 2 kidney function tests, 3 rounds of chemo (which is 9 lots), 3 CT scans, 2 MRIs, 3 audiology tests, 2 echocardiograms, 1 specialist dental appointment and 20 blood tests. That’s insane seeing it all written down.
He’s come so far in such a short space of time, which makes me sad but proud- a real mix of emotions.
It’s robbed the last little bit of his childhood and made him grow up.
We were looking through holiday pictures from California the other day, which was only last October- one month before it all happened. He was so little and innocent.
Now he does his own injections, he makes important decisions about his health and care, he knows what medications to take and when (including knowing all the names of them), he has had the hardest most grown up conversations with strangers about fertility and choosing to go through an operation to preserve his. He is even sitting now doing school work.
He makes me prouder with each obstacle that’s put in his way.
But he is finally half way. We all are. At the top of this huge mountain that was thrown at us with great speed and force.
So Cancer, you tried to break us AGAIN, but haven’t. We are stronger than we ever realised, every single one of us. The girls have learnt that’s it’s ok to be sad and worried and more importantly that it’s good to talk about how you feel and it’s good to recognise your emotions.
We’ve learnt that we are allowed to crumble and there is no shame in asking for help. We have faced our worst fear head on, something no parent should ever face. but we have come out the other side.
Ellis has learnt resilience and that he can achieve anything he puts his mind to. He has also learnt that he is loved, so loved, by lots and lots of people. The gifts, the cards, the well wishes all lift him up when he’s feeling down.
So we are now on the home stretch. The last leg. 3 more rounds, 9 more chemos, 20 more blood tests, 1 new drug, 1 new injection and a whole load of end of chemo tests.
As long as we have each other, we will get through it.